Okay, i always always worry about calories, i always look at the label on foods, if theres alot of calories in them i WILL NOT EAT THEM! I think im over weight, i always feel discusting. i think ever guy looks at me like wow, she need to lose weight. everyone gets to me, when they tell me im fat, and then there say kinding, its ALWAYS gets to me. i never go to bed without thinking i need to lose weight.. And when i think about it i dont want to become anorexic because i dont want to lose my hair. I always run after school, when i go to school, i always try to hind it.
weight=130
age=15
height=5'4 1inch
Yes, you are developing a serious life threatening eating disorder. you think you need to lose weight when in all honestly you do not, you obsess over every little calorie, irrational thinking, and you have a very distorted perception of yourself–all signs of an eating disorder.
Stop comparing yourself to other people. no one in this world can replace you, you are an individual and have your own uniqueness. a number does not define who you are or your worth. Food is not your enemy. it is fuel for your body and is meant to be celebrated and enjoyed. Celebrate your body for the wonderful things it does and allows you to do.
In addition to losing your hair (from anorexia) it also causes depression, anxiety, mood swings, irrational thinking, insomnia, distorted perceptions, brain atrophy (shrinks), muscle atrophy, stunted growth and development of body and brain, destroyed metabolism, damaged organs, gray skin, brittle nails, and infertility (just to name a few).
Please get into a therapist who specializes in eating disorders before this gets any worse. it doesn't get better on its own because it only gets worse. Eating disorders destroy everything: your health, your relationships, your family, your schooling, and your life.
Here this might help.
Anorexia syptoms and signs
Eating and food behavior signs and symptoms
Dieting despite being thin – Follows a severely restricted diet. Eats only certain low-calorie foods. Bans “bad” foods such as carbohydrates and fats.
Obsession with calories, fat grams, and nutrition – Reads food labels, measures and weighs portions, keeps a food diary, reads diet books.
Pretending to eat or lying about eating – hides, plays with, or throws away food to avoid eating. Makes excuses to get out of meals (“I had a huge lunch” or “My stomach isn’t feeling good.”).
Preoccupation with food – Eats very little, but constantly thinks about food. May cook for others, collect recipes, read food magazines, or make meal plans.
Strange or secretive food rituals – often refuses to eat around others or in public places. May eat in rigid, ritualistic ways (e.g. cutting food “just so”, chewing food and spitting it out, using a specific plate).
Appearance and body image signs and symptoms
Dramatic weight loss – Rapid, drastic weight loss with no medical cause.
Feeling fat, despite being underweight – May complain about being overweight in general or just “too fat” in certain places such as the stomach, hips, or thighs.
Fixation on body image – Obsessed with weight, body shape, or clothing size. Frequent weigh-ins and concern over tiny fluctuations in weight.
Harshly critical of appearance – Spends a lot of time in front of the mirror checking for flaws. There’s always something to criticize. They’re never thin enough.
Denies being too thin – Refuses to believe that his or her low body weight is a problem, but may try to conceal it (drinking a lot of water before being weighed, wearing baggy or oversized clothes).
Purging signs and symptoms
Using diet pills, laxatives, or diuretics – Abuses water pills, herbal appetite suppressants, prescription stimulants, ipecac syrup, and other drugs for weight loss.
Throwing up after eating – Frequently disappears after meals or goes to the bathroom. May run the water to disguise sounds of vomiting or reappear smelling like mouthwash or mints.
Compulsive exercising – Follows a punishing exercise regimen aimed at burning calories. will exercise through injuries, illness, and bad weather. Works out extra hard after bingeing or eating something “bad.”
I'm not quite sure what your question is, but below is the DSM-IV checklist for a diagnosis of anorexia nervosa:
1. intense fear of gaining weight
2. weight is less than 85% of the normal weight for the individual's height and age
3. disturbed body perceptions
4. amenorrhea